Archive for October, 2005

,,,a poetry of madness,,,

Wednesday, October 19th, 2005

i hate you,,,

u are so annoying!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wahhhhh,,,cut the crap,,,

i dnt believe in anythin’ u say!!!!

liar!!!liar!!!!!!!

u suck!!!!!!!

burn in hell!!!!!!!!!!!!u stupid a**!!!!

i hate u,,,

i hate u,,,

because that’s all i can do,,,

,,,say things ull never…hear…

—ean—

broken wings by alter bridge

Monday, October 17th, 2005

Fight the fight alone
When the world is full of victims
Dims a fading light
In our souls

Leave the peace alone
Now we all are slowly changing
Dims a fading light
In our souls

In my opinion seeing is to know
The things we hold
Are always first to go
And who’s to say
We won’t end up alone

chorus

On broken wings I’m falling
And it won’t be long
The skin on me is burning
By the fires of the sun
On skinned knees
I’m bleeding
And it won’t be long
I’ve got to find that meaning
I’ll search for so long

Cry ourselves to sleep
We will sleep alone forever
Will you lay me down
In the same place with all I love

Mend the broken homes
Care for them they are our brothers
Save the fading light in our souls

In my opinion seeing is to know
What you give
Will always carry you
And who’s to say
We won’t survive it too

chorus

Set a-free all
Relying on their will
To make me all that I am
And all that I’ll be

Set a-free all
Will fall between the cracks
With memories of all that I am
And I’ll that I’ll be

chorus

damned

Sunday, October 16th, 2005

i was in this cold place,,,i realized my body temperature dropped,,,i look so pale,,,like a ghost perhaps,,,  in my subconscious world i can feel my blood stopped flowing into my veins,,,my heart stopped beating,,, numbness was in the air,,,im dead,,, i sed,,,

but then a sun shines in the cold winter i was in,,,it shed me some warmth,,,touching my skin,,,now i can feel,,,frost no more,,,i was revived,,,

faith perhaps,,,

girl power

Tuesday, October 11th, 2005

this is a beautiful story of women’s beauty. fw:The time the Lord made woman, He was into his sixth day of working overtime. An angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?" And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart -and she will do everything with only two hands." The angel was astounded at the requirements. "Only two hands!? No way! And that’s just on the standard model? That’s too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow to finish." But I won’t," the Lord protested. "I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18 hour days." The angel moved closer and touched the woman. "But you have made her so soft, Lord." "She is soft," the Lord agreed, "but I have also made her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish." "Will she be able to think?", asked the angel. The Lord replied, "Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate." The angel then noticed something, and reaching out, touched the woman’s cheek. "Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model. I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one." "That’s not a leak," the Lord corrected, "that’s a tear!" "What’s the tear for?" the angel asked. The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride." The angel was impressed. "You are a genius, Lord. You thought of everything! Woman is truly amazing." And she is! Women have strengths that amaze men. They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don’t take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They go without so their family can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left. They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart. Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors. They’ll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you. The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning. They bring joy, hope and love. They have compassion and ideals. They give moral support to their family and friends. Women have vital things to say and everything to give. HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN, IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH. but there’s still a way to fix it,so let’s start doing it. : )

PSEUDO-RELATIONSHIPS

Wednesday, October 5th, 2005

MY BESTFRIEND GAVE ME THIS ARTICLE,,,TNX,,,ASTIG EH,,,

IBAT IBANG DAHILAN. PWEDENG FOR FUN LANG. "BUTI NA YAN KESA WALA" OR PWEDE NA IYANG "PANTAWID-GUTOM".  MEANING, HABANG WALA PA IYONG REAL THING, DOON MUNA SA KUNWA-KUNWARIAN.

FOR THOSE WHO ARE NOT IN SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP, THEY WOULD THINK THAT PSEUDO-RELATIONSHIP IS BETTER THAN NO RELATIONSHIP AT ALL. IT WOULD BE FUN, IF ALL YOU ARE AFTER FOR IS THAT "KILIG" FEELING.

AMINADO NAMAN AKO NA ONCE UPON A TIME, MAY MGA PSEUDO-RELATIONSHIPS DIN AKO. NO COMMITMENTS INVOLVED. FOR THE SIMPLEST REASON THAT THEY COULDNT COMMIT, BEC. THEY WERE EITHER COMMITTED TO SOMEONE ELSE OR THAT THEY WERENT READY TO COMMIT. MY RATIONALIZATION, "OK NA YUN, KESA WALA."

ANG HABOL KO LANG NAMAN, IYONG KILIG FEELING. IYONG MERONG NAGTATANONG KUNG KAMUSTA ARAW KO. IYONG MERONG KA-CUDDLE SA BEACH OUTING. IYONG KAPAG TUMUNOG ANG CELLPHONE, MAPAPANGITI NA AKO DAHIL ALAM KONG GALING SA KANYA ANG MESSAGE. IYONG MERONG LAGING KASAMA. HABANG WALA PA ANG THE REAL THING, PWEDE NA ITONG PAGTIYAGAAN.

BUT THEN I LEARNED THAT ALTHOUGH IT WAS ONLY A PSEUDO-RELATIONSHIP, THE EMOTIONS WERE REAL. AND USUALLY, IN THIS KIND OF SET UP, ANG BABAE ANG LUGI.

UNA, YOU CANT ASK HIM TO COMMIT. SINCE ITS NOT REALLY A RELATIONSHIP, YOU CANT DEMAND COMMITMENT FROM YOUR PARTNER. ANO BA KAYO? MAY K KA  NGA BA MAGPASUNDO NG HATINGGABI? YOU WILL ALWAYS BE UNCERTAIN ABOUT YOUR ROLE IN HIS LIFE. YOU CANT EXPECT HIM TO BE ALWAYS THERE WITH YOU. ANF IF YOU FEEL JEALOUS OF THE OTHER GIRLS, YOU JUST HAVE TO KEEP IT TO YOURSELF. ANO KA BA NIYA PARA MAGSELOS?

PANGALAWA, WHAT IF YOU FALL DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH HIM? YOU CANT BE SURE IF HE FEELS THE SAME WAY. BAKA-NAG-AASUME KA LANG NA MAHAL KA RIN NYA. EVEN IF YOU ARE DYING TO TELL HIM YOU LOVE HIM, YOU CANT. BECAUSE YOU’RE NOT SURE  IF HE’LL LIKE IT. BAKA MAPAHIYA KA LANG. THIS STAGE WILL ALWAYS MAKE YOU WONDER WHERE YOU ARE IN THE RELATIONSHIP. OR IF THERE IS A RELATIONSHIP AT ALL.

PANGATLO, WHAT IF YOU BECOME ATTACHED TOO MUCH? WHAT IF YOU HAVE INVESTED ALL YOUR EMOTIONS AND THIS MAN HASNT? WHAT IF YOU REMAIN FAITHFUL TO HIM, NOT ENTERTAINING OTHER GUYS, ONLY TO FIND OUT HE IS SEEING OTHER GIRLS?

ISA PANG DOWNSIDE NG PSEUDO-RELATIONSHIPS, IT IS FLEETING. WHEN A DISAGREEMENT SETS IN, OR WHEN ONE OF YOU GETS COLD, THEN THAT WOULD BE THE END OF IT. UNLIKE IN A SERIOUS REALTIONSHIP, HINDI MO ALAM KUNG SAAN KA LULUGAR SA ISANG PSEUDO-REALTIONSHIP. WALA KANG PINANGHAHAWAKAN. KASI PSEUDO-RELATIONSHIP, THERE IS NO "US". MERON LANG, "YOU AND ME," HINDI "US."

BUTI SANA KUNG PSEUDO-PAIN DIN LANG ANG MARARANASAN MO. KASO, HINDI E. REAL PAIN. AND USUALLY, KAHIT TAPOS NA ANG PSEUDO-RELATIONSHIP, HINDI MO MAIWASAN UMASANG ONE DAY, MAY KARUGTONG PA RIN YUN. AND YOU WILL BE MISERABLE, HOPING TO BRING BACK WHAT YOU USED TO HAVE, ONLY TO FIND OUT EVENTUALLY THAT THE GUY IS IN ANOTHER PESUDO-RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEBODY ELSE.

ANG HIRAP, ANO? YOU AGREED TO THIS KIND OF SET UP FOR FUN AND THEN YOU’D END UP HURTING YOURSELF IN THE PROCESS.

PERO PWEDE NAMAN MAIWASAN ANG PAIN EH. PWEDE NAMAN NA HINDI MUNA ISIPIN ANG FUTURE AND JUST ENJOY THE FEELING, WITHOUT THINKING OF THE CONSEQUENCES.

BUT IF YOU ARE CERTAIN THAT YOU ARE GOING TO HURT YOURSELF IN THE PROCESS, KAILANGAN MO MAMILI. YOU CAN BE HAPPY AND LIVE THE MOMENT WITHOUT WORRYING WHAT WOULD HAPPEN NEXT. OR YOU CAN STOP SETTLING WITH PSEUDO-RELATIONSHIPS AND WAIT FOR THE REAL THING.

WHEN I WAS YOUNGER AND IN PSEUDO-RELATIONSHIP WITH AN UNAVAILABLE GUY,  A FRIEND TOLD ME, "SIGE KUNG AYAW MONG MAGPAPIGIL, BAHALA KA. MAGPAKASAYA KA.PERO HUWAG KANG IIYAK-IYAK PAGKATAPOS, DAHIL TATADYAKAN KITA"

AND THE BOTTOM LINE LANG NMAN, KUNG MAGPAPASAYA SA IYO, GAWIN MO. IHANDA MO LANG ANG SARILI MO SA CONSEQUENCE. DAHIL ANG "PARANG KAYO PERO HINDI" STAGE AY BIHIRANG NAGIGING TOTOO. USUALLY, HANGGANG DOON LANG SIYA…ALMOST BUT NOT QUITE.

— this article is great,,,dami na explain,,,na inspire me,,,astig,,,galing,,,dami ko natutunan,,,